It felt like an out of body experience.
I did not understand it at first.
His words felt faraway, distant and unclear. His words did not seem to fully direct themselves to me.
But Julian is right in front of me. He was repeating it over and over, slowly, gently, knowing I couldn’t digest his words. I’m watching him say it to me, watching his lips move, mouthing every word, but it’s as if I cannot fully hear or comprehend it.
Lio is dead.
He killed himself.
I hear these words separately but not together as it made absolutely no sense to me, because truly it’s not possible. It shouldn’t be possible. I was just with him. We were just together.
Or is that the reason?
The wave of emotions that surge through me almost makes me want to stay in bed, utterly paralyzed and distraught, be
