~Lewis~
This can't be real. No, this is not happening to me. Did he— No, they wouldn't play such a cruel prank on me. Anything but that. However, their expressions told a different story. The look of pity in their eyes revealed the painful truth, and I despise it.
I loathe this so much!
But maybe this is my retribution, the consequences for all the pain and sorrow I caused him. I deserve it. I know that. Regardless of the heavy burden this punishment places on my heart and soul, deep down in the abyss of my dark heart, I feel I deserve even more. What frustrates me, urging me to contemplate using sharp objects on my wrist, is my persistently selfish belief that the weight of this punishment is too immense as a price for my sins.
I am foolishly selfish, and I detest it. I detest myself!
