“I could not……. could not do it to my mother. Some how, I could not do anything like she did to me, and right then everything started to shake for me. Immediately I fall to the ground and I was crying, and I was screaming, I was crying making sure I could hear my own self because I want to.
I was making sure I could hear and hear my own pain for once, feel my own pain because sometimes I would scream so loud that my senses was stop and it would confused me as to what I was feeling in my body, all because I couldn’t hear herself. No idea as to what my body was doing because most of the time I couldn't see anything or feel anything, or even myself as well. But this time I was screaming and crying, I fell down her bed, and now was on my knees. My mother actually woke up and I remember beggi
