By the time we were done with lunch and got through desserts and more drinks , I wanted nothing more than to be home in comfy loungewear . Don' t get me wrong here . I love my family but in moderation especially under the current circumstances . The longer I sat in there presence I could not help but feel like each pair of eyes were more hyper focussed on my every move individually and also my interaction with Ryder .
I guess being in on the reality of how the situation actually was made it tougher to stay in the presence of people who knew us too well in fear that they may find a c***k that we did not even know had been showing . But even so , Chase had found me at the end of the balcony nursing an almost empty glass of wine as I watching the later afternoon sky go from an airy , bright
