It had been nothing compared to the kiss I had orchestrated at the reception . in fact , I felt like it was incomparable . Ryder had kissed me wildly , angrily , nearly punishingly . I tried to keep up, I tried to match him and , when I finally did, he took my bottom lip in his and sucked caused the sensation to reach right through my core . My eyes widened when I realised what was going on and I immediately stopped . My body jerked and I found all my strength to push him away from me . His lips broke away from mine and I immediately took two steps back from him before stopping fearing that I would fall to the floor of I tried to take another . Our harsh breaths had filled the space and Ryder' s dark eyes had assessed my face. What had I done ? ! I was not supposed to kiss him back . I w