by 7 in the evening , I had gathered all my things together and place them in a small over night bag as he prepared to leave from writers house once again . with The Hawthorns gone , there simply was no need for me to hang around here and go on daily with this endless turmoil knowing that there was nothing that I could do about it and even if I had made an attempt at some sort of change Ryder will only sabotage it or find somewhere to interpret it incorrectly. it is not something that I was strong enough to bear anymore and , as I looked at my self in the mirror of the bedroom , I placed a hand over my abdomen .
I did not want to have a stressful pregnancy neither did I want to be under any sort of strain or tension that could honestly affect me or the well - being of My unborn child . I
