My Roommate, My worst Nightmare

Chapter 13. *random thoughts*

(Alexia p.o.v)..

The past few weeks has been rough on me so far, Tobias coming back, getting into trouble with him, getting knocked out, my being unconscious and all... It hasn't been pretty at all,

Not what I expected my college life to be like, it's so surprising,painful and confusing at the same time, and bottom line is I have no idea what I actually did to this guy for him to hate me this much,...

Like if I could remember vividly when I got here first year of college, everyone loved me, my coursmates, I was making friends and then all of a sudden,,,,...

They started growing distance and this devil we only interacted once, like once at that Was on my first day of school, so why why why...

Why does he hate me, seriously Guys If you ask me I have no idea why he hates me this much, it's like he wants me gone, like he wants me to disappear.....

Why would anyone hate someone with so much hatred, I did nothing wrong, nothing I'm sure of that, and I can't even fight back... Even if I wanted to I can't do anything no one can..

His family they're just too powerful, oh did I mention he is also the youngest billionaire in town and guess what his father is the mayor,, and his mum, she is the chief judge... Hahahahahaha.. Hilarious right,, yeah I know..

I mean think about it, what will happen if I report the case to the police, oh damn I forgot, one of my old friends told me his uncle is the Police Chief, now what happens if I report this to the police, there is every possibility the case might get brushed off when it gets to his uncle...

And one thing I've learnt about his family so far, they will do anything to protect their name, you see, if I dare try to snitch a word to anyone about this,.. Everything will be over for me, they will end my carrier, my aunt lily will be devastated..

The only thing I can do is this.. Keep on talking to myself like this, like a crazy person, the only thing I can possibly do is to keep on wallowing in self pity.. That's my only way out, keep shut, endure everything for as long as i can, I've been doing a good job so far....

No one has to know, I need to be strong, I need to think about my future, my aunt, her faith in me, I have to endure this in order for me to graduate, I just need to be patient, 1 more year and 3months, I'm out of here, once I graduate I don't have to see his face again, I don't have to come back here again....

I just need to go away as far as possible away from him and I'll be free. All this self pity and patience will be worth it.. I'll be free......

At least that was what I thought.. Little did I know about the Drama awaiting me in few months.. If only i had known, I would have ran when I had the chance... .

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The ringing of my phone woke me up from my beauty sleep, one thing I hate most is my sleep being disturbed.....

I reached for my phone which I placed underneath my pillow before I slept off, ugh God, I just wanna have a peaceful night rest, Dear God,, why can't I get a moment of peace, really, i wonder if you even listen to any of my prayer request......

I blinked my eyes open, trying to adjust to the back light of the phone that kept flashing at my face with every ring.

Finally seeing the caller ID, answered the call,. After 15mins of a lengthy conversation with my aunt lily, we said our goodbyes and she handed up the phone.....

I guess things will end up being a little messier than I thought.. I've been dead worried for the past months I haven't heard from her..

I missed her call yesterday, although I tried calling her back but it wasn't going through, I'm just glad she is okay.. And I guess my monthly allowance for this month has to cut in half.. With everything going down there back at home, I can't burden her with my youthful problems.. It will be rewarding some day.. I'll find love, I'll graduate, I'll get a good job, I'll get married start my own family and everything will be fine....

I checked the time to see it is few minutes past 7, hmm, why does if feel like I'm. Missing something, hmm *click*

Dammit today is Monday, holy crap I have an 8oclock class, damn, Alexia can you be anymore stupid than you are now, OK OK OK.. Enough with the soliloquy,,, you need to get your ads down to school I mentally scolded myself...

Rushing down to the bathroom and I hurriedly did my morning routine as usual, I don't have to bore you with the details.. I rushed to the kitchen grabbed a toast and a cup of milk chunk it down, rushing out of the house....

Oh dammit, I ran back in, remembering I left my backpack on the bed, quickly grabbing my backpack and closing the front door after me, I ran as fast as I can to the bustop and thank the stars I got here right on time for the next bus..

I really need to start keeping good track of time, damn, I'm always rushing out everyone...

Honestly I won't be surprised if I'm late for my own wedding and up running to the church with my heels in my hand instead of me wearing them... Hahahahahaha.. God that will be so funny and stupid at the same time.

I wonder why I always get this crazy thoughts.. Before I forget about my problems, oh God please help me avoid Tobias today.. Please..

I'm not hoping for that prayer to be answered anyway, he never answers my prayer.. And Tobias guess is only prayer is always about finding perfect spots to torture me..

I just wanna live a Tobias free life.. Can't a pretty girl atleaat have that..

Well I guess I can't, the universe and fate seems to think otherwise...

Mom, dad I don't know if you're up there watching..

You promised you would watch over me, are you still watching, did you sleep.. Can you see your little girl suffering, I'm in pains dad. Guess you both aren't watching.

I shouldn't disturb you either, I should at least let you have your afterlife peace, sorry for bugging you...

"Alex, Alex, *wack* Lexx.. Wait the actual f**k was you thinking and why the hell are you crying in front of the school gate, what happened"..

oh my stars, I didn't even realise I was already in front of the school crying, what a perfect way to start a perfect Monday... I quickly wiped my the tears of my face with the back of my hand..

"Hi, morning Cassandra, how do you do"?

"Okay no mornings to you lexx, answer my question first, why was you crying,"

" I wasn't crying, I mean not that I was crying, I was crying but not actually crying.... You know that kinda crying when you are crying but not crying, but it looks like your crying but you aren't actually crying, like crying, it's just seems like you're crying" I replied her not knowing exactly what to tell her..

"oh, hey hey, slow down, I don't understand any of the s**t you just said, like what does that even mean, crying when you're not crying like crying but ain't actually crying, oh goodness, I can't even get into it,.... Just I don't wanna know,, my brain is already all fuzzy"

" Sorry something just got into my eyes"

"you don't expect me to believe that right lexx,,, just let's go in, class is about to start.., by the way how are you feeling"...

"well pip, if you want me to say the truth, I feel peachy and messed up at the same time but I'm good"

"honestly lexx, your choice of words and sentence construction is confusing"

"Well that just proves how intelligent I am" I said to her smiling.. Cassandra can be a pain in the ass sometimes, but she still has a good days, she is the only true friend I have here and I'm grateful for her friendship .......