As soon as the decision hit me I physically jolted, spasming with shock at the thoughts that seemed to manifest from nowhere but guided me somewhere very, very dark. I couldn’t wrap my head around the thoughts, as ironic as that sounded. I couldn’t believe these thoughts were in my head.
It was f****d up, for lack of a better expression. It was supremely f****d up.
“Edie,” Zacharias whispered from below me. My eyes were wide and my bare chest panted against his as I tried to push the thoughts away but couldn’t. I looked over the side of the bed, expecting flames from hell to burn through my floorboards. ”Edie.”
I shook my head lightly, shushing him. I couldn’t find the words to tell him now wasn’t the time to speak, that I needed silence. He seemed to catch the hint, however, not speaki
