"…I find it strange just thinking about it. I've seen my fair share of beautiful people in all these years, and I've seen how other people react to them—the ‘correct’ way to do so, as I secretly like to say. Whether they are a man or a woman, when they see something pleasing to their eyes, they are immediately drawn to it, and if they could, they'd want to possess it.
"After I was sent away from here, it had taken me a while to notice that I didn't have that impulse. I think I can appreciate something beautiful as much as anyone can, but as for wanting to pursue it as others do, as for wanting the bearer of that beauty to look my way as well and come to have the same feelings for me as I have for them—for them to agree to be mine the way I want to be theirs…
“It's really so strange. I'
