“Yes,” Qing Xue answered slowly. “Ruyi loves me. I never doubted it. But it's only now that I’ve come to see just how much.”
Unable to stop himself, he recalled the way it felt when he was kissing Bai Ruyi earlier. The silky feel of his lips, the sounds he was making, the way he’d tried to respond to Qing Xue with equal passion… Bai Ruyi loved him so much that he was willing to push himself that far.
But there were still some things that he instinctually couldn’t bring himself to do.
“He doesn’t care about the cost to himself,” Qing Xue continued, clenching his hands that were on either side of him as he sat. “I don’t even have to ask and he’ll give himself to me. But even if I accepted what he was offering, I won’t be able to bear it in the end. He’s the one I treasure the most in this
