I haven't seen Caelan in two days. When Medic came out and explained that she remembered nothing and maybe we needed to give her some time, I broke. I left the hospital and rode to this spot by the lake outside of town that she and I used to go to when we were younger. It's the same place where she and I hooked up for the first time. I sat there for hours the other night and broke down. Caelan may still be alive, but the fact she doesn't remember her life is like losing her completely. And Medic saying she may never get her memories back . . . that rips my heart out.
Yesterday, I went to work at the apartments since Caelan isn't there to run the office. I spent this morning there, too, and then came back to the clubhouse with the intention of doing something I haven't done since I was
