I am sitting on my bed and staring in the front of me after Ryder dropped me off. Suddenly I have a feeling that I did something stupid. I don’t regret agreeing to be Ryder’s girlfriend because I really like him, I just regret not having a chance at all by Jayden after today and hurting him. He will be so disappointed and my heart aches when I think about that. He was so happy when I forgave him last time when he was drunk. Sh*t, what if he drinks again, what if he gets in trouble and he gets hurt, all because of me? ‘Don’t think about the worst.’ I try to calm myself but I can’t. What he is going to say when he finds out? He will hate me, he will be devastated, because of me. ‘Oh my god, what have I done?’ I ask myself and I feel my tears are falling on my cheeks like waterfall and I am s
