I drive to Jayden’s with shaking hands, I am very nervous and I feel terribly guilty. I just hope he will listen to me and understands where I am coming from with this. I know I wouldn’t like the situation either if this happens the other way around, but what else can I do. I feel sorry for Ryder, he has no one to take care of him, only me and I don’t want to lose him. He said even if I choose Jayden he will stay by my side as my friend, but I don’t think our friendship will work out like that. If I choose Ryder, I will definitely lose Jayden, maybe he doesn’t want to have anything to do with me already. I don’t know what to do, this is so complicated. I feel like a sl*t who likes two guys at the same time. I like Jayden more but we know each other longer and it wouldn’t be fair to Ryder i
