REBECCA
You’re no longer in active service.
Alex’s words kept going on in my mind like a broken record: for an endless moment, I was unable to do anything – just stand there, in the middle of the locker room, all too aware of my teammates’ (well, ex-teammates) eyes on me. They were all looking at me with shock, sadness and sorrow, and some with pity, even: of course they did.
I must have been a rather pitiful sight, standing there after being told I was no longer their captain – after walking into that room unaware of everything. Shame began to burn into my veins and my eyes, but I blinked the tears of humiliation back: I wouldn’t add a crying scene to that already humiliating moment.
My first instinct was to say “f**k it”.
I knew my team – they would follow me no matter what, of
