Saying I was scared of the Unknown that I was about to face would be a lie because I've already embraced what is coming my way and I can't wait to see my boy.
I know I should be terrified because I don't know what he will do to me or what condition Simon is at the moment but I know he needs me.
I followed his instructions exactly how he said I should. A part of me definitely regretted how Bernard and I left things but I don't think I can fix anything if I know for a fact that I wasn't wrong.
I don't think Bernard realizes the full weight of being a parent because you have to make tough choices and I have no problem making those choices.
He is a good man and I know he loves Simon but being a parent is more than that. it's more than playing with your son.
My head was all over the place
