***Savvy**** I could see Jason following behind me as I made my way down the road from the clubhouse. It felt odd being out of there. I have spent so much time there lately, but I know I need this today, and I need to have some space to clear my head. It's been a whirlwind of thoughts since Chaos left, well before he left, actually. I have been trying to work it out in my head how I feel, and Im still just as confused as I was before. I know I enjoy spending time with him, and he can make me laugh. Underneath all that leather and hardcore aura, he is sweet and smart, and not what anyone would think he would be, I have gotten comfortable with him and he has seen me at some of my lowest moments, usally when a memory hits me he is right there he does not push he waits for me to open up and

