For the next few days, I continue to rest at home. I want to think that emotionally I'm okay, but the fact that I haven't been out of bed lately says differently. The whole process in the hospital really did a number on me. In movies and shows when a woman has a miscarriage, that it. It's over and done. I didn't know that they still make you technically give birth to your dead baby and everything else. It was a stressful situation. However, Ethan was right there with me the whole time. He held my hand while the doctor did what she had to do. Afterward, I just cried. I sobbed for at least an hour in Ethan's arms and now, I'm just numb to everything.
My mother and Anna have been here for me every single day though. For the first two days, they left me alone to just wrap my head around it a
