The Biker's Hidden Baby

Why have you changed?

Lara's P.O.V

Some weeks had passed after Ezra's slight accident, Jacky had announced that there would be a meeting at the last minute tonight. The leader of the club called for a meeting with the investors of the club. She went into detail about the meeting, but I hardly paid any attention to it.

My mind was on Ezra. By now, his leg should have been healed, and he should have been at the club, but he was awol, and it's not like I could ask anyone where the hell he was. After Jacky was done informing us about what she thought the meeting would be about, I called Suann and asked her if she could keep an eye on Riley.

She wasn't needed at the meeting, so she agreed. I went back to my office, swapped out my scrubs and got ready for the meeting... my days have been so f*****g long lately, my mind had been on a treadmill and, honestly, I looked like a mess... that accident Ezra had brought up so many unwanted thoughts.

So many unwanted pains and feelings, even the nightmares returned. I drew in a deep breath, ran my hands over my face and sighed out loudly. I didn't want to feel the things I had been feeling, and I didn't know how to get rid of them. Dare I say that it was once again getting the better of me.

Life without him was hard. I mean not getting an answer to my question, not getting the comfort or solace that I needed was hard. He was off somewhere married and probably had other children he loved more than Riley... while our lives were haunted by him by the pain he left behind.

"Knock knock"

Jacky says as she pokes her in my office door, then steps inside.

"I wish you'd tell me what got you so down."

She says after taking a seat. Jacky and I have grown close in the two months I have been here, and I am so grateful to her.

""Just some old s**t my mind won't let go of."

"Unfinished things are the things the mind never forgets. Come on talk to me. Maybe I could shed some light or something."

"Riley's dad."

I said with a huff.

"What about him?"

I dive into everything as fast as I can, only giving her important info before our meeting and when I am done we are both quiet for a few minutes... then she clears her throat.

"That's f****d up, but you know what, he lost a f*****g good woman and an even better son. My guess is that you're better off without him."

"Yeah, that's what I have been trying to tell myself for the past 6 years."

"No one said it would be easy, Lara, You'll have days when you feel like you're on top of the world, and then you'll have days when it feels like the world is on top of you, but that doesn't mean we give up or let it get us down... you're a bright woman you'll figure it out now come on the meeting will start soon, we can talk more about this tomorrow over a few drinks."

She smiles, stands from her seat and sticks her hand out to take mine.

Together we walked to the gym where the meeting would be held. Some of the guys took in a huge table and chairs, while to the side someone took the liberty of setting up a coffee and donuts table. The smell of coffee filled my nostrils and the sweetness of the donuts made my tummy grumble, but when I felt like this, food was the last thing I thought about.

Jacky pulled out the seat next to hers and I took it. I looked around the table, greeting people with a smile and a nod of my head. The leader of the club entered and took a seat. The meeting started... boring things. I blanked out a few times until he said the investor was here...

I looked up, grabbed Jacky's hand under the table and held my breath. I watched as his eyes traveled around the table, and finally they rested on me. He swallowed, making his adam's apple bob. I was ready to flee... I aggressively tried to pull my hand from Jacky's, but he held a firm grip on my hand.

She looked at me, whispered what the f**k then looked back at the investor... she took a while, as if he was checking him out or something, then looked back at me, her eyes big and her mouth slightly open. Her face told me everything I needed to know, no DNA test was needed. Any i***t could see that Riley was his...

As he spoke, I worked myself up the f*****g nerve he had, he remembered me or he wouldn't look at me the way he did. Yet he didn't bother finding us, he went on with his life. He forgot about us. My eyes filled with tears, I had to get out of here. I gently tugged on Jacky's hand, and she looked at me.

"I need to go"

I whispered, I could see it in her eyes, the pity they held for me and that was the last thing I needed. She nodded and let go of my hand.

"Excuse me"

I said as I got up and almost ran the door off.

Tanner's P.O.V

It's her, sitting there looking as beautiful as ever. After I was released from hospital, my memories slowly returned to me well only some of them. The doctor said it might be the accident that triggered my lost memories to return and that I should take it easy. They would come back to me slowly.

I've been home recovering, and yet I couldn't get her out of my mind. After my first accident she just felt me without a word. I don't remember her visiting me when I spent so many months in the hospital. The messed-up part is that I thought she was just a figment of my imagination...

But now I know she was real all along. She was working at the club. She had been under my nose all that time and I couldn't trust my messed-up mind to go and find out for myself if she was real or not after the second accident. I rushed mindlessly through the meeting just wanting to get it over with so I could talk to her.

I could see the tears in her eyes when she asked to be excused, and I felt like such a f*****g asshole, how could I forget the most beautiful woman? Why did it take so f*****g long for my memories to return?.. There were still so many things that didn't make sense to me, but I was going to get to the bottom of it.

I excused myself and rushed off after her. I couldn't let her get away from me again. I needed to talk to her and needed to make her understand that I would never have walked away from her if it wasn't for my broken brains... I found her in her office...

"Lara"

I whispered as I took a tentative step closer. She looked at me, her eyes rimmed red.

"You've got some f*****g nerve"

She whispered.

"I can explain"

"Explain? What exactly is it that you want to explain? f*****g me while you had a fiancée or the fact that you f*****g strung me along?"

"Why have you changed?"

She laughed the evil kind of laugh like she was some crazy f*****g woman.

"Do you know how many times I wished I was the one you remembered? Or that your f*****g mother and soon-to-be-b***h wife would let me talk to you for even just a moment? I know you forgot and all that s**t, but it f*****g hurt so f**k you Tanner. We are better off without you."