Misty's Voice
1259 Words
February 10th 2015
Dear Diary
I know, I know it's been awhile, forgive me lol. I can't believe the difference at campus here. It's a lot more to take in that's for sure but it's also glorious; I mean, there are so many people here! A lot more than in my small town is all I can say. I'ts so different to what I'm used to but in a good way. There's so much to take in and so many more people to talk to instead of seeing the same old faces every single day. It's refreshing. Except that I'm too shy to intiate conversations so it's been few and far between but still it's better than no one talking to me at all.
I've started my classes and they seem fairly easy to navigate right now. My professors all seem nice and willing to keep me on track but as usual I'm excelling all of my computer classes. They just seem so effortless and I feel awful when I see some of the class completely struggling to understand the concepts. I try my best to help but all that's done is give me a reputation as a goody two shoes. Not quite what a girl wants to have on campus. It kind of makes you a leper and no one want's to really hang out with you. I thought being helpful was a good thing, since when did it become something to look down on? Oh well at least I'm not failing. As for the computer science professor? He is strict and sometimes very heavy handed with assignments but he's also extremely fair if you have a proper explanation for missing a deadline or needing an extension despite it being early days. You can't really ask for more than that really. Not when everything hinges on you getting a high enough grade to pass and go onto the next level. It's stressful and a lot more workload than I thought I would be given but I'll work it out. After all I also have a job to do in between classes and studying.
Next week is pledge week and I get to visit all of the different sororities and see which ones I gel with. I don't know if it's even worth going to them or if I just go to the one that I want? I mean let's face it, I want the elite not the inferior one. The one my mother told me about in all of her stores and the friendships she made while she went to university. I kind of just want to have what she had and make memories of my own to hold onto in the future. I know, I know, I keep harping on about the same things but that's just how much I'm looking forward to everything and just how excited I am. To be surrounded with like minded people who all want the same thing. Treasured memories and sisterly bonds. What more could one want in a sorority. Maybe helping those less fortunate but one step at a time. I can always suggest it when I am completely accepted. I miss helping people in the soup kitchen back home. Theres none close by and I can't commute too far. Besides best I get into a routine before attempting to put more on my plate.
Oh well my roommate is coming with and I'm sure that both of us will get in. My roommate keeps going hot and cold on me though and she's hard to figure out. Sometimes I think we're friends other times it's like I'm her enemy. It's strange. I imagine it's how sisters argue when they live together. I don't know though because I don't have one, but sometimes I pretend she is. That's sad right? But it still something I think of now and then. I'm not that close to my cousins, though I would really like to be. Maybe I should make more of an effort, after all they do but with how busy I am I've kind of ignored them without intentionally meaning to. Geez I'm rambling aren't I just wish that Sandy and I were a little closer considering that we both are trying to get into the same sorority. Maybe I'm just imagining it all? I have been a little stressed lately so it is probable that it's all just in my head or that Sandy might be stressed as well trying to keep up with all of her classes and assignments. I should really be a bit more understanding I guess and maybe try a little harder with her instead of just creating more distance between us. I would really like a friend right now, one that is close and shares the same interests.
Dad calls me everyday, checking to make sure I'm ok, that I don't need anything. He's a little bit too much but I think he's afraid I'll forget about him or something. He's always looked out for me so I guess he might just be a bit lonely at the moment, even with work he has no one else to talk to except for his brother and his children. He also told me he's found a new job, one that pays him a lot more money and more suited to his skills with computers. I'm so happy for him. This is exactly what he needed, just someone to recognise how skilled and talented he was. I even heard that he's considering moving closer to work. While I'm sad that the house I grew up in might be gone, I can't help but be proud of him for moving forward and starting a new chapter in his life, just as I am. Who knows, maybe me going to university was the exact push my father needed. He's so excited about the new job as well, couldn't stop raving about it on the telephone.
I have to go to class shortly. Thank goodness all my assignments are finished. It means I can actually relax this weekend instead of studying relentlessly and frantically finishing off an assignment because several of them are due at the same time. Something to look forward to. Maybe I'll even go down and visit dad despite it being a long trip. It would be nice to feel his arms around me again and to maybe spend what could be one of the last times in my family home. Besides my monday's are free so I would get to spend the night and still have time to get back. Won't he be pleased?
I'm not going to tell my dad, I think i'll surprise him. He won't expect me to visit him so soon but when you miss your father, you really miss them. I don't care if that makes me look clingy. I love my father so much and I know just how much he loves me. I'll even bring him his favourite chocolates and maybe have a movie night with him. We haven't done that in like forever to be honest. I guess I just got too busy as I got older. We used to love having movie nights together.
Well I guess I'll go for now but I cannot wait for pledge week. Trust me it's going to be the best week of my entire life and give me memories to last a lifetime. Here's to hopefully becoming a sorority sister and developing friendships to last a lifetime.
All My Love
Misty
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