Standing in front of the closed door of the church, my tummy feels like turning and I am beyond nervous. I grip the bouquet of peonies and sighed numerous times. I am always anxious of the crowd. And to think that many have arrived to witness this ceremony, I feel like going back to the hotel room. This is your wedding, Nica! Own it! I agreed to the voice in my head. This is our big day… I should be proud and happy. They should see me as the happiest woman on earth. As the door opens wide, my veil and gown danced with the wind for a second as a familiar song plays. I can recognize Lady Gaga’s Always Remember Us This Way even at its piano version. It is so romantic and evens the ambiance and setting of the church. The flowers and the smile on the faces of the people in