Thought after thought ran through my mind, possibility after possibility, and I could do no more than to remain quiet, and to stand here before him. My desire to disappear and go to my own chambers was even greater than it had been before, and I genuinely didn’t think that it was possible—I would have even preferred to have the ground open up and swallow me whole, than to remain here, than to continue with this conversation.
There were feelings within me that were being raised to light that I had no idea even existed. I felt like I didn’t have control over everything, even the things that I thought myself to have control over. It was absolute insanity. And the fact that Dae was simply just standing and staring at me, wasn’t making anything better. I knew that he was waiting for me to say
