Epilogue: Part One Ashley 3 years later "We've talked about this Asher. After last time, I thought you would be able to handle this without having a panic attack." My husband is a complete lunatic right now. We're on our way to the hospital for the birth of our second child. Yes, second child. When Ryder was born, Asher passed out and missed the majority of his birth. Three years later, I find myself once again being the calm one in this situation, even though I'm about to push another human out of my body. "I'm sorry, okay? This...this is just something I'm never going to get used to. What if something goes wrong? What if you or the baby-" "Asher! Please, for the love of God shut up!" I'm gripping both hands tightly around my baby bump as another contraction starts. "Okay, okay.