DESIRE'S & FATE

Chapter *14*

HAPPY READING

Sibel POV

As much as I was frolicking at the mouth for Ryon, I have never been in a relationship, and this was all new to me. Admittedly, I was a little scared of the commitment of a relationship with him and making it work, especially with the type of person he was. It was incredibly hard to believe we are finally together after all this time of assuming what it could have been and with his background I didn't think it would have been but now...now I couldn't imagine my day without the way he makes me feel.

Despite him being a handful, he was an easy man to love.

I sighed at the thought of him silently remembering the way he kissed me and touched me with so much tenderness I didn't know he had in him. I couldn't picture another man stirring all the things he did in me and the way my body immediately reacted to every touch, every ripple, and every curve of his body next to mine.

The way he would trace my skin with the back of his fingers and those eyes gazing back at me like he could drink me in. Those taunt muscles flexed as he held me close and kissed me until my toes curled. Lord, he was as sensual as he was imperfect, and I wanted every minute of it.

"You're never going to finish," Kay shouted, and I snapped open my eyes. Without realizing it, I began to trace along my collarbone as he did the morning after I opened my eyes to him staring at me in his arms.

I blushed embarrassed kay saw me this way. "You seriously need to get laid," she laughed and stretched out the huge bouquet of roses and chocolate.

"For me?"

I smelled the sweet fragrance of the roses and took out the card. "It pays to date rich," she plopped down next to me.

"What?" I turned towards her.

"I counted its one hundred of those roses. You have to admit that isn't normal," she said.

"What's not normal about it," I asked.

"I've never dated a guy that gives that many roses at once."

"Is that a bad thing?" I wanted to know.

"Nope, it's a great thing. Just know the payback has got to be worth it."

"What does that mean?"

"You will find out," she said, getting up, and I rolled my eyes.

"I see," I said even though I didn't see at all.

"Your energy is something I've never experienced, and just the thought of being next to you drives me insane.

Your present energy and vibes are all I need this weekend. Please spend the weekend with me. Love... Your boyfriend.

R. Menture." I read.

"He is so sweet," the butterflies in my stomach went haywire as I read the card over and over again.

"And corny," Kay laughed.

The things he does make me want him badly and am so tempted to jump his bones in a flash but when he holds me in his embrace I only craved the peace I find in his arms although I usually end up settling for intimacy over wild passion like my heart needs I never want to rush things between us because let's be real. There is a baby mother around the corner.

I smell the roses one last time before putting them away and picking up the box of chocolate. I popped one into my mouth.

Moving some papers around a slight yawn escaped me, and I leaned my head back onto the couch, groaning. I was exhausted and had a slight headache. Staying up late was never good for me. Even when studying late, my body would rebel against me the next day when I didn't get enough sleep. But I couldn't resist talking to my boyfriend, and I didn't want to let him go and end the call when we were talking about all the happiness in the world. My heart was just bursting and I stayed on the line even when he begged me to get my rest.

"I told you, you weren't cut out for the nightlife," Kay laughed and held out a glass of ginger ale, and I was grateful. "Now look at you," she laughed.

"How do you do it? "I asked.

"I'm a night person. You aren't," she said.

"Get back to it," she said, pointing at my books. I drank my glass halfway which actually revived me somewhat.

I groaned not only was the sleep deprivation kicking my ass but this week's column was annoyingly insensitive.

I inhaled deeply and exhaled then paused for the countless time after I read this anonymous writer's words to collect myself and put my personal feelings aside.

With another deep breath, I picked up my laptop from the chaotic pile in front of me on the living room floor strewn with paper balls, a ledger, textbooks, pens, and pencils. The first thing I noticed as my eyes flicked to the screen is the time and my advice is due in the next two hours at precisely 4:00 to be reviewed before the print date.

I was currently six weeks into my internship at Coastal Print with my wisdom to dear life advice—to an anonymous writer's submission. My editor requested one answer per week of the thousands of submissions the publication received weekly. During my first week at Coastal Print, I was extremely torn on how to select the submission that needed the most attention but after reading through a few and these people mostly needed relationship advice. I'm currently down to a system where I closed my eyes and pulled an envelope. Hence why I'm here contemplating if I should pray for this writer or send a team of deliverance pastors their way.

Nevertheless, I needed to be thorough in my understanding and response to every individual as it relates to matters of the heart or mental health issues as it relates to the complications in a relationship.

Sometimes I honestly feel only God can help some of these emails and unknowing if I'm the last lifeline some of these writers are holding onto I try my best to give the advice I would want given to me or my loved ones even if I have to put my feelings aside.

For the love of love, I still did not understand how people took some of the worst, saddest, heartbreaks in the world and stayed thinking they could love that person passed the hurt when they were hurting the most in the worst possible way. One thing my editor would say is it was their truth and I needed to respect that no matter how screwed up or ridiculous it was.

It was also amazing the type of s**t people deflected for love. Make it make sense. Still, I continued to work on my advice, and after four rewrites this time around I was finally pleased with my answer to the ridiculous email and hit send.

My eyes were finished with me, they needed to rest particularly because I was on my laptop for far too long after my phone died. Without powering on my phone I plugged my charger into the closest socket and sit back ready to warm my eyes before completing my literature tease.

I leaned my head back and before long my eyes were closed. I needed to rest my eyes.

"I told you to get your rest, now see yourself," I heard the familiar voice and my head shot up. I looked over at the doorway where Ryon leaned against it, in his signature black suit, top three buttons loose and no tie.

How long was I out?

He held out a bag of food and I know there was a reason I love him. I instantaneously jumped out of my chair with a big grin and ran into his arms. I wrapped my arms around his midsection and lay my head on his chest.

"I missed you too," he smiled and my heart fluttered. Despite being tired I was really excited he came. And it only made the deep feeling I have for him grow. I never shut up about him and could hardly stop thinking about the man and the way he makes me his priority.

"What are you doing here," I asked.

"I need to see you and feel you next to me," he said and my heartbeat sped up. "You weren't answering my calls either," he said getting serious.

"Oh, my battery died hours ago."

"Don't let it happen again," he warned.

"Okay sir," I said. He so aggravating.

"I brought you Chipola steak," he said holding out the bag to me when I pulled back. "Thank you," I smiled not remembering I mentioned it was my favorite.

Before I could take two steps away from him, his hand latched onto my arm. "Ryon! My food," I whined almost dropping the bag.

He reached out, grabbed my chin, and pressed his lips twice to mine before letting me go. "You weren't going to kiss me? Do not let it happen again," he said close to my face while he held my gaze and I had to remember that.

My stomach dipped.

"Sorry," I said shyly and he smiled. I hadn't been in a relationship with anyone so all this affection and attention was so new to me even though I craved being under him most of the time as he liked kissing me. It was something I needed to get used to because I wasn't as affectionate as Ryon and I wanted to.

"I love Chipotle," I said looking into the bag. "You love it enough to give me another kiss," he said and I blushed turning away but turned back and reached up on my toes and pressed a lingering kiss to his lips.

I looked at him when I pulled back and I was attracted to every inch of this man. Everything about him made chills run down my spine and tingled between my thighs. It only made me want him more in every way, even though he is mine now.

Maybe I could just be hormonal or needed to feel more of what I felt on new year's night, either way, this man only makes me want him more.

I hadn't done anything remotely intimate except for that encounter and him holding me closer and much tighter only did things to me. His arms were always so warm and distracting.

"I like it when you look at me that way," he smiled at me and I shied away innocently not able to look at him any longer in the eyes.

He chuckled, "Come eat baby. You smell amazing," he said and I was bright red in the face.

"You want to come back to my room or here's good for you," I asked taking one of the containers out of the bag.

"I'm good here. But you never answered my question."

"What question?" I asked putting the first piece of bit side steak into my mouth and taking my seat back on the couch then he joined me.

"Spending the weekend with me... didn't you get my roses?"

"Hmm, yes I did," I answered. "They are lovely, thank you. And I would love a lazy weekend if I can finish my tease."

"How about I help? I can't wait to feed you in bed this weekend."

"And make a mess," I asked scrunching my face.

"Unfortunately, it's not the type of mess I would like to make but I will take what I can get... for now," he smirked looking directly at me and my jaw dropped. He has no idea what he does to me or does he?

I blushed immediately noting how he was staring at me. "So how was your day," I asked trying to change the topic and that look in his eyes and he laughed.

"You're so adorable," he chuckled.

"Would you like to have some?" I looked down at my food noting how rude it must be to just sit and eat while he wasn't.

"I can tell you what I would like to have," Ryon said licking over his lips and enjoying the way I was turning red in the face.

Nothing was helping me stay calm at this moment and I giggled. "Don't get smart, you didn't answer my question."

"I'm alright, I ate with the boys before I came here," he chuckled and licked his lips. "Teases?" he asked lifting my ledger and I nodded.

I watched him read and the man was even more attractive when he was concentrating on work. No wonder he works himself ragged. His schedule was crazy and I honestly do not know how he does it.

"What are you staring at," he said playfully and I must have zoned off because I didn't notice him when start to gaze at me.

I shook my head innocently. "How was it," I asked before taking a sip of water.

"It was good to be out after missing a few but you're my peace Sibel and I need that this weekend after the week I had," he spoke sincerely, and I was halfway melted into my seat. Every time he said words sincerely like that to me it shows the extent of his feelings and makes me a blushing mess.

"Okay, if I can get this done before 1 am I'm all yours sir," I smiled from ear to ear and he grabbed my pen causing me to bust out laughing.

"And let's just be clear I'm not very productive if I do not sleep," I said and he smiled. "I know."

For the duration of time, he told me about his day and listened to me dragged about my column and some of the ridiculous things people did for love or to stay with their ideology of love. He told me about his company gala, dinner with his brother and officially meeting his family as his girlfriend while he made notes and scratch a few lines I worked so hard to write.

That was where my fear settled in the pit of my stomach. What if they do not like me or worst... would they want him to be with the mother of his child? That was usually how high society treated matters like these and the fear was beginning to trickle down to my feet and get hot in my head. Fast.

"Are you alright?" he stopped talking and looked directly at me.

"What's wrong? You were doing so well."

I didn't know if I was crazy for it but the idea of Ryon all to myself never fled my mind once. At first, I thought I loved what it could have been but now I know I cannot help who I love.

I didn't know what he would think of it so I kept it to myself.

"Sure," he said touching my cheek with his thumb.