What if?

Chapter 26: Not mature enough

Nick

It has been weeks since I got here in this family. To tell you, Michael and I became a lot closer to each other. Mom and dad have been so good to me and been taking care of me all these times. Janice and the three helpers, Maria, Leonora and Theresa are also close with us now. Not just me, but also Michael. Michael and I would also go to the park once a week as he had promised me to.  Michael keeps his promises really well. I wonder about his secrets. 

Well, you know a lot of people are suffering because the promises that the other person promised to them were all broken. I hope  that it will stay like this forever. I haven't also felt  like I am left out in this family like what other people are in the movies. I think movies like parents adopting a kid then the biological kid does not like the adopted kid should not be watched by young kids because it made us think that being an adopted child is really a mess. Maybe it really does happen to others who were also adopted. But I still think that it should not be open to young kids like me and younger. It will really affect our perception on this thing.

Mom and dad are like travelling everywhere. This thing is really funny, I just happen to know that our business has something to do with the bank. My family owns a bank that is well-known to the country, the bank's name is TRUST BANK. I asked mom once why the bank's name is like that and she told me that because she wanted our bank's name to be easily remembered. And also dad and her decided to name it like that because they want to build trust to the customers locally. Mom and dad are also so busy going to other countries to process things like this. They would also often not be at home. Even when they are here in the country, there would be times that they needed to stay to some places locally for business purposes. They are so busy because they want to increase the money of their customers by making businesses and buying stocks to stock markets. At this age I really learned a lot about business from them. 

Michael has been living his dream life with me. Our room has finished a long time ago and we have been sleeping with each other for a long time. Guess what, I think I finally get over Michael's clumsiness when sleeping. Whenever he hugs or do some sort of things when we sleep I don't feel anything. Instead, I just sleep without caring to what he is doing to me. I think I got immune to what he has been doing all these past few weeks. On the other hand, I have one problem with him. Whenever he says something sweet, it makes me shy. Sometimes he is so weird. He would call me cute. It is not a good word to say to a boy like him. Other people might think something different. Even Michael and I are now brothers, I still care of people's opinion, I mean I hear them out. Just come to think of it, a few more days are left and we will be at school. So it means that there would be new people for me to see but I think that his classmates would be shocked to hear that he has an adopted brother. If he will say that to me in front of other people it would be very awkward. So I just really hope that he will stop saying this whenever he wants to. 

By the way our room totally changed to something more comfortable and beautiful. We thought that it would change for days but it took a whole week to dress up our rooms. Our room is now the biggest in this household. They changed the color into all white. Honestly, I don't like white but when they started to put things in the room such as lamps, desks, chairs, stools and closets it started to look so beautiful. Mom and dad decide to buy a new bed too for both of us. At first, I was so happy after hearing that. Because I thought that they would buy two beds for the both of us but I was wrong, Mom and dad bought a big bed for the both of us to sleep together. I think that the bed is also very expensive because of its design and softness. Whenever I sleep on the bed, I just feel like I am inside the water sleeping. The bed is so relaxing and very comfortable.

There were only a few days left for us to go back to school and I will be transferred to Michael’s school. He was the one who said it out to mom and dad. Michael wanted me to be in his school and so I am. I don’t want to be in another school because it will be very hard for me. I am not good when it comes to getting to know people and befriending because I get really shy easily to people my age. Michael is the opposite of me, he really gets along with new people so well. So, I think that if we will be in the same school, he will be able to accommodate me and also take care of me while in the school.

Mom and dad actually processed my requirements for the new school. So when Michael opened it to them, it was already done. I remembered mom saying “Son thank you for caring for your brother but also remember that we are his parents. We also want him to be at your side.” Mom said those words with so many flowers around her, I really felt so much love from them. Sometimes, I just think that I do not deserve their love for me. Because of this, I promised myself to do my best. I may not be as smart as Michael, but I will try my best to become a good son for mom and dad.

To be honest, I am actually really nervous and excited at the same time to go to my new school. It is because people might look at me like something not good enough to be in the Travera Family. Excited because it is a new school so I wonder what rich people look like in real life. I used to only watch them in movies and since I was not born with a silver spoon I really wanted to be in such a school. I also have one thing that I really am worried about, Michael’s friend named John. I am worried that maybe Michael will not take good care of me in the new school because he is with his childhood friend. I admit, sometimes I just hate whenever Michael talks about John being his childhood friend this and that. It is just so annoying whenever I hear it. I might be jealous but I just don’t want Michael to leave me left out in the new school because of John. 

I once asked Michael what he thinks of me. He said that I am his brother, I was not content with his answer. So I asked more by asking him if I did not become his brother what would be my role in his life. He said that I am his best friend. I liked his answer but I asked him about Nick’s role in his life too. He said Nick is different from me. Nick is a childhood friend of his until now and I am his best friend and brother. He added that he has never acted like the way he acted to me with John so it just shows that I am his best friend. Although he said we are both important with him because he can’t live without any of us in his life. 

When Michael said that I was washed by my jealousy, I understood his actions and feelings. I should not have asked him this. I know that this is hard for him to explain. “Sorry Michael, I am so immature for things like this.” I said to myself reflecting to my actions.