Bentley I was on my third cigarette when Hillary found me. “I was looking everywhere for you,” she says, eyeing the stick between my lips. She doesn’t like it. I take it out and crush it against the bench I’m sitting on, then fling the stub away. I don’t even know why I give a s**t what she thinks of me. “Dinner’s ready,” she says. “I’m not hungry,” I respond, because I’m truly not. “Jake and Jackie aren’t going to be there if that’s what you’re worried about,” she says, rubbing her arms against the chill. “I’m not hungry,” I repeat. She turns around and leaves. After a few minutes, I hop off the bench and head back inside. I stop by the trash can near the porch, throw in the rest of the cigarette pack and the lighter. They’re still at dinner when I walk in—everyone except Vane

