I only have a few minutes to get ready before it is time for us to leave. I don’t shower or do any make up. I simply get changed into fresh and presentable clothes, brush my hair and leave. I am extremely nervous. I am eager to find out how the pack will react to the news, but at the same time I want the world to swallow me up so that I am far away from others, in a place where nobody can find me or reach me. In a place where nobody can hurt me. We get into Xavier’s sports car he decides to drive. I am glad he does because I will not be able to focus on the road. I have too much on my mind. I sit in the driver’s seat in complete silence. I can see Xavier looking over at me now and again to make sure that I am okay. He gives me small and comforting smiles now and again, but they don’t help
