James Derek loves me...He told me, as well as an entire room full of people, that he loves me.
I should have been happy, right? I should have been feeling utterly elated that he’d finally spoken his feelings about me.
But, for some unknown reason, I found myself feeling rather numb. Numb and filled with more unanswered questions. Why? Why had James chosen, of all possible times, to tell me that he loves me during a press conference? Why couldn’t he have shared his feelings with me in a more private, intimate setting?
Something like that should have brought a warm feeling or, at the very least, a spark of jovial surprise...Instead, it left me shocked.
However, the press was absolutely losing their minds over James’ public display. Several photographers snapped their cameras in hopes
