Caged In

Your wolf knows best

Cage

As I sit here, I think about what Valen said to me. He didn't seem happy at all when I told them that my ex is pregnant. I have seen that look of complete disappointment before. I won't lie and say it didn't hurt. I look up to Valen. He is a great male figure. I f*cked up, I know I did and now knowing that I am his daughter's mate must be really concerning to him. I completely understand, but at least Catalina is on my side. She said we will all get through this, and that as long Avalena and I decided to be together, then we can all work past this together. I didn't miss the look her husband gave her, but luckily he wasn't rude to me or rip me a new one. I know that is probably because they are the closest friends my parents have, and he respects my parents. I hope this doesn't affect their friendship. I just can't get those words out of my mind though. As much as I don't want to think about it, it is my reality. "By Avalena accepting you and your child, and going through with the mating ceremony, her firstborn will lose the title of Alpha," He said it will go to my child instead. I am not sure how that would even work because my child will be a human. Once Avalana turns me, will I be able to turn my child? All he said was that technology is so advanced now. That there are ways, and to the pack, my child would be their leader after me, if they accept our mating and for me to be their Alpha, but for that, you have to have a wolf. I am so confused. I don't know how that is possible. Was he just trying to see my reaction? Does he think I don't really want to be with Avalena? Does he want to see if I am trying to sneak my son into being cared for by Avalena full-time? It won't even be that way, because my child will be with his mother more than with us. Is this him trying to make me choose? Maybe he just wanted to know where future children that belong to Avalena and I will stand?

I feel a little frustrated now, but decide to just chill out, because I couldn't get much more information since there are so many people around. He just said we can discuss it all later if I decide to accept his daughter. I already did, but there's no reason to freak out now. I will just talk to Ava later. Maybe she can explain it better than her father did, and we can discuss it and make plans together like Catalina said we would do. I do not want Avalena to give anything up for me. It isn't fair to her or any future children. Whatever belongs to her parents, they can leave it all to her, and she can do with it whatever she decides. I can't just come in and take it and claim it all for myself. That is ridiculous. It isn't fair or right. Now that I know that she wants me, she is all I can think about, and it makes me think that I have been crazy for not approaching her sooner. My life could have been really different. Oh well, I can't change it now. Everything happens for a reason. I can just hope that by communicating, we can figure it all out, because this changes everything.

"Cage, hello, earth to Cage," Avalena says. I snap out of it and give her my undivided attention, even if my heart is beating faster, knowing that any choice we make can end what we are just starting, and I don't want this to end. I want to get to know Avalena more. My mind is just going crazy with thoughts about her, and what our life could be like, and I already love it. Waking up to her and falling asleep with her every day and night. Seeing her beautiful face. I already feel positive about the way my life can possibly go. It looks so promising with her in my life, but there's still that shadow that hangs over me. I hate that. Not my child, just Lucy.

"What's going on? You seem really serious now? Did my dad tell you something you didn't like?" she asks me, but I shake my head, not wanting to ruin this. I can't dump all of these thoughts on her. It's time to put my big boy pants on and figure it all out, without dragging her into it. I can think about it all later when I am alone. Right now, I just want to spend time with Avalena, and get to know each other more. I need to know everything about her. "Nothing is going on. Tell me, what is your favorite thing to do? I want to hear all of your goals. Is there anything you want me to know, or something that no-one else knows. I want to know everything about you," I tell her instead. I play with her hair as she talks about things I have never heard about, but just hearing her soft voice comforts me so much. I can hear her talk for the rest of my life and feel content. Everything about her is so soothing. I feel relaxed just sitting here. I am not even in a hurry to move. I watch all the people in front of us, the flowers, lights, everything happening that is beautiful and not like anything else I have ever seen or experienced before.

You know that feeling you get when you know that someone is watching you? I look around until my eyes land on two girls. I have seen one of them before. She has been over my house before. She is always giving me googly eyes. This is Rae's friend, Stephanie. She is standing next to another girl who is staring at me. Stephanie is talking to her, and she shakes her since the other girl is too busy looking at me, or our way. They are a bit further away, so I can't tell exactly, but she is for sure looking at us. Stephanie notices that she is looking our way, and she puts her hand up to block her mouth, and they begin whispering to each other. They both look up and laugh, then both wave. I just look away. Stephanie has always been a bit too much. She once tried to corner me at my own house, and she tried to grab my junk. I had to push her away and tell her I was in a relationship and not interested. She is a damn demon that girl, and I do not want her anywhere near me, us.

Avalena

I don't really get the vibe that Cage is having much fun here. I decide to be bold and do something spontaneous. I stand up and grab his hand so he can stand as well. I pull him towards the pack house. I say hi to everyone as we quickly pass them by. We are stopped at the front of the bottom of the stairs by none other than Mama Lenny though. Cr@p. This is the only person I am afraid of, because this woman can see right through you.

"Hello little Avalena," she looks at Cage and smirks. "Oh, I see you are not so little anymore, or you won't be for long," she giggles, and I can feel myself turning red. Why is she saying this out loud? She knows what I am up to. "Um, can you please not tell my parents you saw us here," I tell her. "Of course, Avalena. You know you can trust me. Hi Cage. You have changed so much since the last time I saw you. You look so much like your father, so big and handsome," she says, and I shove her a bit. "Mama Lenny, you have always had wandering eyes," I whisper. "What, his daddy is a fine, fine man. This is why he and his sister are so beautiful, and why you are going crazy for him. Remember I have known you all your whole lives. I know how this will end," she whisper shouts. I groan. "We have to go. We are in a hurry," I tell her, and she steps to the side as we begin climbing the stairs. "Be careful with what you are about to do. Remember these bonds are forever." I hear her voice in my head. She isn't a werewolf, yet she is able to mind link with us. That's how powerful she is. "Is there something you need to tell me?" I link her, because I don't know if she is just reminding me of this or if she is trying to make me second guess myself, because she sees something. "The only thing I have to tell you is that you deserve to be happy, and to always listen to your wolf. What our hearts tell us, might not always be the right option, but your wolf knows best."