"What are you doing?" I asked again. "Of course, I'm busy with work. I'll talk to you later if you have nothing else." With that, Gail hung up the phone. After I put down the phone, I had mixed feelings. Although I seriously wanted to spend the rest of my life with my girlfriend, all she made me feel was uncertainty. The seemingly solid love between us was actually vulnerable, so where was our love going in the future? I just lay on the hospital bed, tossing and turning miserably, and somehow felt the urge to urinate. It was not obvious at first, but it became more and more urgent later, but I was on an IV, and my other hand was wrapped with gauze, which was really inconvenient for me to go to the bathroom. So I lay on the bed and resisted it, thinking that if I could fall asleep q