I used winter break to my advantage. With Troy busy helping his father and also leading the search for Sam, I found myself with some free time. So I took the opportunity to visit with the pack’s doctor. I had originally thought I would end up seeing the same one that took care of me when I first arrived, but to my lucky surprise, we had a female doctor on hand as well. After ensuring everything we discussed would be between us, I confided in her my fears of going farther with Troy. I knew I wanted to, but at the same time, I wasn’t ready to one be a mom and two after seeing what happened to my mom and what had almost happened to me. Frankly, I was scared. All of which she assured me was normal. The first time with anyone was nerve-racking anyway, but adding on the trauma of what happened w
