Bonnie Watching Lottie as she steps closer to her mom is somewhat heartbreaking. What must she be feeling right now? What must she be thinking? What do you say to the one person who should have always been there for you? She's never known the love of a mom and it's heartbreaking and while I know how she feels in that department there's still a huge difference in our situations. Her mom chose to leave her, but my mom didn't. I've heard more than once about how much of a good mom my mom was, and about how excited she was to have me and Blue. She wouldn't have walked away from us ever but Lola chose to walk away from Lottie and I am pretty sure that she doesn't regret a thing about it. I can't imagine the pain that she feels. I wouldn't want to. "Why?" She asks Lola. Her voice sounds so