Chapter 21
Why do you look so peaceful? My God, Derek, you almost look…happy.
The sun is coming up. Your hair is like fire on the pillow. You know I always had a thing for your hair. Sometimes, in the morning, when you were sleeping next to me, I’d put a strand of your hair up to the light, just to watch the sun get caught in all that red.
Everybody is gonna be here soon. But I don’t wanna see anybody. Don’t wanna talk. Don’t wanna hear. I just wanna watch you. Do you feel me? Do you feel my hand on your hand?
I wanna kiss you.
Did you feel that?
Derek…
I want you to fight. I need you to be brave, like I know you can. Like you’ve always been. I know reality is s**t sometimes. I know the world is getting scarier and scarier every day, and that maybe there isn’t much grace to be witne
