STELLA
It’s been over a week since I last saw Xavier. I am back at school and he is still back in his pack. Elle and Carter tell me that he is busy with work, but I am just not sure that it’s completely true. Somehow, I feel that he is angry with me. And it hurts. It hurts me at some very deep level I never even knew I had. He is punishing me. I know he is. And for what? For being weak? For not being worthy of him?
Every time I think of this, I want to cry. Until a day comes when I don’t. I am not going to cry because of the guy I did not want to be with in the first place! I didn’t ask for this! I didn’t ask for him! If he decides he doesn’t want to be with me – so be it! That’s exactly what I want too! I almost forgot about my plans because of him. Thanks for reminding me, Xave, of wh
