*Samantha*
I never thought I would resemble Bella from Eclipse on my darkest day when she sat like a disemboweled doll after breaking up with Edward. But only now do I fully understand how a girl feels when the love of her life leaves her alone. Only my beloved didn't leave me; I chose to disconnect from him. I have to admit that it was the stupidest, most painful moment of my life. At that time, my thoughts were piling up like layered homework, and my emotions were playing all four seasons of Vivaldi within me. I felt a bottomless emptiness, yet anger, longing, and disbelief overwhelmed me. Love and hate coexisted within me simultaneously. These contradictions stacked up, and I wasn't sure which one was in control. All I knew was that silence, time, and distance were necessary for me to
