― stop punishing yourself for losing him
It’s weird, but whenever I imagined Oasis’ bright smiling face, I didn't feel the strong tug in my chest. Instead, I feel light like I’m in cloud nine. For the first time in years, I don’t feel the guilt. I should be glad but I don't want this kind of feeling. I was used to blaming myself, hating myself, hurting ― and everything just to give myself a hard time that it suddenly doesn’t feel right feeling okay now.
I bit my lower lip and watched the city blurred behind us as the car drove in a minimum speed limit. I wiped my sweaty hand on my dress. I don’t really want to go back home but Mr. Racini informed me my parents will start for a search and rescue even though it’s not yet twenty-four hours since I left. They probably think the incident
