I stared at the message that I just received, my heart racing so fast inside my chest. I don’t know what to think. My head is a mess and I don’t think I am in the right headspace to even have more things to think about.
The news about Xavion had already broken my whole system down. I couldn’t even function well now. All I could think about are the things I told him before he left. Did I tell him what he wanted to hear? Did I act caring enough? Damn it.
If I knew this would happen, I wouldn’t have been such a jerk to him in Iceland or in the plane. I would have looked past through all of the things that hurt me before and made up. f**k! This hurts so bad!
Tears started to stream down my face again. I have been crying nonstop since I heard what my father said about Xavion’s situation. I
