JOSHUA
Lucy has been unusually quiet during our drive back , perhaps she is nervous about going back to my room after what happened there last time , I know I behaved like an asshole that day , and last night , actually , I now realize that I have been a freaking nightmare to Lucy for a long time , there are so many bad memories she must hold on that they are now overshadowing the good ones.
I need to change that , I have to give her only good memories from now on , I want her to smile every time she thinks of me , and of our times together. I won’t press her to do anything she is not comfortable with , I won't even suggest to do something until she is sure that it is what she truly wants. Nate was insistent that I shouldn’t make her feel bad about not wanting to do anything , and I inte
