JOSHUA Lucy looks at me with her big caramel eyes , and an expectant look on them , and I seem to have suddenly forgotten how to speak , I can't find the words to make her stop wondering about the book , so when she opens the book and begins to read the first page , I feel the sweat starting to build on my forehead. f**k , this can’t be good , I should stop her , take the book from her or something , but I am paralyzed with fear , I have no freaking clue what to do now. Her eyes widen in shock , as does her mouth , and then she looks at me with a mixture of disapproval and a questioning look , like she knows what it is but doesn't understand why it exist something like this. All the color leaves my face and I feel sick like I am going to throw up at any moment , it could be