*****Erika’s POV***** I stood speechless and vibrating with anger over what Elder Grigshade had said to me. I held back tears, standing still as a statue. What was the meaning of the words he’d just told me? Why would he tell me things like that? What gave him the right to speak to me in that manner? I collapsed on the chair I had been seating, trying to ignore the pounding in my head. Tears fell despite my desire to control them from streaming. What was happening? I was so tired and weak. Everything was beginning to get crazy, a lot of things were getting too confusing for me. I was no longer sure of myself. Of my ability to rule. Whatever Elder Grigshade was doing, it was working. And even though I wanted to fight it, I did not feel the zeal too. Jace was gone, dad was sick. S