My Superstar Has A Secret

Distant

JAKE

I wake up the next morning with a jump. I quickly run to my mirror and then I see that I am human again. I feel completely relieved because I do not know what I would have done if I was still in my wolf form. I put on some pants because I know that every time when I turn into a wolf my clothes tear into pieces and I know that I would never get that clothes back again.

Then I decide to take a shower and try to forget what happened last night. But it doesn't seem like these thoughts are going to leave me anytime soon. As I think about what happened last night there is something that is bothering me. The scent that I caught when I was walking in the woods. The one that I immediately felt like I hate whatever that smell is.

I wish I knew where this came from because I was feeling hatred towards it almost immediately but I do not know what it was. I know that I better do some research about werewolves. I can not go on with my life like this not knowing when I will change. I start to wonder if I would be able to control it or if it is something that just comes when it wants to come.

I can not walk through my life and suddenly change into a wolf in front of everyone. I start to realize that I can not be the man that I was before. As I get out of my shower and have a towel wrapped around my waist, I see that I have a text from my manager.

He wants to confirm whether our meeting is still on for tomorrow but before I can reply to him, I realized that I need to take some time for myself. I know that I have another show in three days but I have to figure this out. I quickly send him a text back.

"I am sorry I have to cancel tomorrow. I will see you on the day of the show"

I know that this is something that I would never do but it is time for me to figure out what is happening to me. I can not let anyone know what is going on. Then there is a knock on my door. I open the door and it is Bruno standing in front of me.

"Sir, I am sorry to bother you but I just wanted to see if you got home safely"

"Yes, thank you"

I nod and close the door in his face. I just do not want to see anyone right now. I can not allow anyone to see me change. It can happen at any moment and I would not be able to control myself. Then I decide to go on my computer and start to Google. I am sure that I would find something.

Someone somewhere must be able to help me. As I go through everything I start to notice that there is a lot of nut jobs out there but also here and there is something truthful. I have to do a lot of filtering but finally, I came to the conclusion that I would be able to control my changing into a wolf.

It is going to take a lot of practice from my side as it's not going to be so easy. I have also learned that I have to keep on eating as much as I do in order for me to survive. I'm not sure how much of what I'm reading is the truth and how much is just bogus.

The next few days I start to experiment a lot with what is going on in my life. I would go out at night and try to change into my wolf form. Some nights, I will get it right and other nights I don't. Then, when I change into my wolf form I would start to explore my body as a wolf.

I realized that I primarily only want to hunt when I am in that form but it is interesting to know what kind of abilities I possess. I would test my strengths and how fast I have become every day. I would push my own boundaries and get better and better at attacking my prey.

I have developed a lot of skills as a wolf and should I get across an enemy I will devour them. I have decided to isolate myself completely from any human contact. I am afraid if people touch me that they will see me for who I am. I would go and do a concert and right away, I would come back home.

I have limited my time that I would practice my dances as every dance is flawless and I do not need the extra people around me. Ever since I have become a werewolf there is very little that I can not do perfectly. Mark has become increasingly worried about me and would ask me every so often if I am still okay.

I would just brush him off as if he didn't really ask me a question and our meetings are mostly done over the phone. I am just too afraid to be around any humans as I do not have control over changing into a wolf. Laura will briefly see me and then I would quickly pick the outfits I want and ask her to leave immediately after.

She would do my makeup as fast as she can just before a show and most of the time I would just relax and try to sleep while she does it. I know that when I sleep the wolf can not come out. This would be the same routine every time and I have grown very distant from anyone that was close to me.

I have declined every interview that the press would like to keep with me because I can only imagine what would happen if they sniff out what evil lies within me. I have been cursed and I know now that I will never be the same again.

I wake up one morning after I have spent my night trying to control the wolf and I realized that I am supposed to go on a world tour in four days. It was easy to come back home every time after a concert but now I will be in hotel rooms and would have hardly any control over where I would be.

I do not want to disappoint my fans but I do not want anyone to know what I am. I know that if I cancel this world tour, Mark will know that there is something wrong because I used to love it. I used to love all the attention that I got from around the world but now attention is the last thing that I'm looking for.

Everything inside me wants to go on this tour and every time I am on the stage I feel like I am home. How am I going to do this, if I can not control the wolf?