Claire
It was a day-long drive and we weren’t even there yet. We took a couple of breaks to eat and stretch our legs. We stopped by a little B&B for the night and I felt torn away from my babies. I couldn’t explain how I felt such an instant attachment to them other than maternal instinct. But I couldn’t be the best mother for them unless I knew my true self. That’s why I agreed to this trip.
I had to hurry into the bathroom to empty my breasts. My chest felt engorged and heavy. I squeezed my boobs and the milk drained into the sink. It felt wasteful but I didn’t have the means to freeze it for later use. I have pumped what I could for the twins before leaving, and I hoped it would be enough until I get back.
When I was done showering and brushing my teeth, I stepped back into the bedro
