The Tormented Alpha's Last hope

ELLE From the outside my life was everything I could have wished for and more. With Enzo by my side I felt as though I could conquer anything that was thrown our way. Everything was good, the pack was happy, we all lived in peace with no threats to fear. If anything life was real quiet, nothing like the drama and threat we once faced when I first met Enzo. Octavia and Aston were still together. They spent many years travelling after they were married and eventually settled back here in Blackwood. They now have the most precious twin girls, Abligail and Isabella. They were now ten years old, and had their father wrapped so tightly around their little finger they could get away with murder. Enzo was just as bad as Aston, he was soft, the word no completely left his vocabulary when it came to the girls. He would make such a great doting father, if only I could give him that opportunity. That was the reason I was sat here in my bathroom looking down at the little white stick in disbelief. The two pink lines told me I was pregnant, but I wasnt happy, not like any other person would be. I was filled with dread. Scared to even stand and walk out of this room incase I had to see that look on Enzo's face yet again. Shortly after my Lunar ceremony, many years ago. I fell pregnant with our son. The pregnancy went swimmingly, no problems at all. I was just tired all the time, Enzo used to tease me for falling asleep at the most innopropriate times, once i even nodded off in my dinner gaining a faceful of lamb stew. But it all changed when I gave birth, My body failed my son and I was unable to deliver him in time to save him. The doctor and his nursing team did all they could to revive him, but it just wasn't meant to be. I got a mere two minutes with him before he was taken away. Enzo was beside himself, as much as he tried to comfort me I could see in his eyes he was a broken man. All we were left with was a photo and a card with his hands and footprints on and an empty feeling deep inside us. That was twenty years ago, for so long I was too scared to try again, but eventually we did. Six years ago I miscarried, and again last year. I just knew I was never going to become a mother. We kept this quiet from a lot of people, although there was a lot of speculation as to why we didn't have children yet. We had recently began to talk of adoption, there were many children in Corban house that were orphaned. I was all too willing to give them a home, yet Enzo wanted to wait a little longer, he said he could tell good luck was coming our way. I just wished I had his optimism. I could feel tears brimming in my eyes as the two pink lines became blurry. Taking some tissue I dabbed my eyes and took a deep breath. “We need to tell him, he will look after us.” my wolf spoke softly to me. The whole pack had now developed the ability to talk to their Lycan sides. It did come in very handy. “Is everything ok?” His voice startled me. Our Lycans shared a strong connection, I knew he would have been able to sense something was off by now. I cleared my throat, standing I tossed my tissue into the bin. “Yeah, I'm fine.” I lied. He could tell straight away, opening the door he stood in the doorway looking at me up and down trying to decipher what was wrong. I held out the white stick, taking it cautiously he studied it for a moment before his eyes found my red teary ones. “It's ok, we've got this” he said softly as he wrapped his arms around me. Keeping me in his warm embrace just long enough that I actually started to believe him. Thaat was until he let me go and the coldness circled me again leaving the pit of dread to begin its boil of doom. “I'll ring the doctor.” He suggested pulling out his mobile phone. “No!” I snapped. His eyes darted to me, “Sorry, I just mean, I don't want anyone to know this time. I don't want medications or special shakes, I just want to carry on as normal, just for now, please” He nodded his head, “Ok, whatever you want. I'm here with you every step of the way.” he cupped my cheeks and planted a chaste kiss on my forehead. “Thankyou.” I smiled. “I'm going to go for my walk, but I will see you at breakfast, ok” He nodded as I walked away, I knew he was worried, I also knew from this moment on he was going to be on tender hooks waiting for something to go wrong. Because I was going to be doing exactly the same. I zipped up my coat and headed out into the brisk morning air. The pack had grown tremendously over the years and I was very proud of the work Enzo and Aston had put into it. As I walked down the pathway to my usual spot I smiled and greeted each person I passed. It was usually the same people around this time of morning. They didn't stop to talk, they knew where I was heading. And out of respect they all let me continue on my way. I reached the Iron gate that was at the head of the packs cemetary. Opening it just enough to walk through I looked at the white marble tomb stone. Engraved on the Front it wrote To a Special son Kraven Kane Corban We will hold you in our hearts until we can hold you in heaven Forever dearly Loved By all Sleep tight Baby Boy I came here every morning to speak to him, I knew Enzo also came here alone quite often. He tells him of the pack and funny stories about him and Aston when they were younger. I can't look at his face when he talks to him, the sadness in his eyes, the pain his Lycan feels. All because I failed him. I met him back in the Kitchen for breakfast and indulged in the most delicious bacon and pancakes I think I had ever had in my life. Then we both continued our normal daily chores about the pack. Little did I know we were about to head into one hell of a storm.