Falling In Love With My Brother-In-Law ( M×M )

Chapter 8 : The Conditioned First Night

The Conditioned First Night

Sex is more than just a physical act. For some, it binds their soul as they feel what it's like to be completed.

The master bedroom was decorated very nicely. The fluffy mattress, satin sheet and the petals of roses arranged in a heart shape looked mesmerizing. The walls were decorated with a few balloons, artificial flowers and some amazing lights. After stepping into the room, Anjali sighed in relief, finding Varun was nowhere to be seen and put the glass of turmeric milk on the stand. She took a good look at the decorations and tried to reason with herself. As a girl she knew where her choices laid and what she wanted, but still she was unsure of whether or not Varun would appreciate or respect her choices. Even though they were legally married now and she had known Varun for the past four months, they were still far from being each other's partners. Anjali always had this thought of being intimate with someone who absolutely adored and loved her and vice versa. There was no doubt in her mind that Varun was a good person but he was still far from being the partner she wanted him to be.

What if he got offended?

What if he thought I was hiding something?

What if he tried to ...

All these thoughts wandered in her head, making her heart beat faster. Trying her best to calm her racing heart, Anjali sat on the bed but kept thinking about what would happen to her now.

Varun, on the other hand, was all alone on the roof of the house. Looking at the moon in the night sky, he let out a humorous laugh, thinking that he was also incomplete, just like this crescent moon. On the outside, someone might say he has everything a person could dream of: a loving family, a successful business, a younger brother who loves him to death and now a beautiful educated wife, but only Varun knew the truth. His fear and thoughts crowded his mind as he kept thinking about what he should do next.

What if I just sleep today ?

How about I tell her I need some time ?

What if I tell her we should wait till our honeymoon ?

His mind started thinking of all the excuses he could possibly use to avoid the suhaagraat. Being intimate with someone had never been Varun's problem. But the thought of being intimate with a girl was terrifying for him. He didn't even know he could perform well or worse. What if he could never get it up ?

" Ahhh ... ", Varun let out a scream in annoyance and sighed loudly. He was so busy in his own thoughts that he didn't even notice his younger brother Arun being there until Arun smacked his shoulder.

" What's up ? ", Arun asked.

" Nothing chote ", Varun replied.

But Arun didn't believe his words and took a good look at his brother. His brother's serious and worried face made him realize something and he burst out laughing. Varun was so shocked by his brother's outburst that he gave him a quizzical look.

" Come on bro.. don't tell me you are feeling performance pressure ", Arun said in between his outburst. Not knowing how to react, Varun just glared at him, which made Arun quiet.

" Don't worry bro, I know your skills. I mean, when I was in college, you were hailed as a legend. I have always heard from boys how you were a total hunk and cassanova on the campus. I don't think you need to worry about your performance, bro. I know you can score well ", Arun said, and Varun felt more worried hearing this.

It was true that he was hailed as a legend among boys, but no one knew it was all a facade. All the girls he had been with, it was nothing but to maintain his image in front of his friends and in front of his parents. He never felt any romantic feelings for any of his ex girlfriends even though he tried very hard. One day he even tried to get drunk and have s*x with one of his girlfriends but couldn't do it. That was the day when he realized what he was but never revealed it to anyone. Even all the boys he had been with during college loved him enough not to reveal his secrets. He had managed to pretend the life of an ideal son until now. But after this he was really terrified of what would happen.

" Broo.. ", Arun shook him and broke him out of his own world of thoughts. Feeling annoyed by his brother, he didn't say anything and left. Arun stood dumbfounded thinking about what had happened to his brother and why he was reacting like that.

The rest of the family were already in their rooms since they didn't want to disturb the newly wed. Even though both Varun and Anjali's room was on the fourth floor, they still thought it would be nice to give them privacy. As Varun walked down the stairs, the uneasiness in his heart grew more and more with each step he took. Shaking this feeling, he slowly walked towards the room and knocked on the door.

" It's opened ", Anjali said and Varun slowly opened the door. His eyes fell on his wife who was sitting in his bed, dressed up as a bride, and he gulped down a pool of his own saliva. Locking the door from the inside, he slowly walked towards the bed and sat on its edge.

The heavy awkwardness was evident in both of their faces as they tried their best not to look at each other. Varun decided to speak and moved his lips only to cough awkwardly and then became silent again. Anjali, on the other hand, was too shocked to think what to do or not to do. The way her heart was pounding inside her chest, she felt she would die from a heart attack.

" Mh...mh.. ", Varun cleared his throat loudly and she looked at him.

" The.. ", Varun started saying but couldn't finish his sentence as the words died in his mouth.

Seeing this, Anjali decided to say what's on her mind and get this over with.

" There is something I want to talk about, Varun Ji ", Anjali whispered.

" Uhm.. okay ", Varun said.

" Um.. um... can we not do this today ? ", Anjali asked, and Varun gave her a shocked expression.

Seeing this, Anjali held her breath and started explaining.

" It's just.. I want us to be more conformable and connected with each other before umm.. doing .. ", she said hesitantly.

Varun was still so shocked that he couldn't believe what he had just heard. His wife had just solved the biggest dilemma he was facing. He couldn't believe how lucky he was.

" That's fine ", he said, and both of them sighed in relief.

" To be honest, I wanted to talk about the same thing too ", he said, and Anjali smiled a bit, understanding his concerns.

" Even though we are husband and wife now, this can wait until both of us feel comfortable around each other ", he said, and Anjali nodded her head.

" Thank you so much for understanding this. I was really worried thinking how you might react after hearing me ", Anjali said in a lowered voice.

" You know you don't have to be so formal with me. Just treat me as one of your friends and we will see where this leads to ", Varun said.

Anjali nodded her head in agreeing and then suddenly remembered something.

" The milk ", she said, signalling to the glance of the milk which was kept on the stand.

" You know why don't you finish that glass and take a rest? Looking at you, I think you need that glass of milk more than me ", Varun said, chuckling, and Anjali lowered her head in embarrassment. She didn't say anything as she picked up the glass and drank its contents.

As Anjali drank the milk, Varun walked up to the cupboard and took out his nightsuit. He went to the bathroom and changed into his night clothes. When he came out, he smiled seeing Anjali had finished the milk.

" You can go change now ", Varun said.

Anjali didn't say anything and went to the cupboard. Her clothes were already unpacked and properly arranged in the shelf. Taking out her night clothes, she went to the bathroom to change. While she was busy in the bathroom, Varun took a few pillows and his blanket to the cushion. He made his bed on the cushion and pretended to fall asleep.

After twenty minutes, when Anjali finally came out, she noticed Varun was already sleeping and sighed in relief. She slowly walked towards the switch and turned off the lights. After getting into bed, she felt the warmth of her blanket and closed her eyes for some much needed sleep. Seeing Anjali going to bed, Varun also flushed down all of his unnecessary thoughts and tried to sleep.