Chapter Eighteen – YES YOU ARE Cole sat on the end of my bed looking at me perplexed, “Helena, please what is wrong baby girl?” he implored with me, I looked at him I could not say anything, it would just open up a can of worms, that I did not want to be opened “s**t Helena, please for f**k sake talk to me” He begged his voice sounding lost and desperate. “I don’t think I can Cole, you would never understand, and well I am probably just being stupid” I finally said, looking away wiping the tear that was running down my face. “Try, please” he pleaded again I sat up on the bed looked into his eyes and saw confusion and sadness, I cannot do that to him, not when he has been so kind these last couple of days, so I took a deep breath and sighed “Why did you do that? Spend all that m