"Kay, what are you doing? Please, put the g*n down, you're scaring me.put it down, please." The younger version of me in the video begged, my voice was of a little girl, I was 15 at the time, he was going to turn 18 in a few weeks. "Please, Kay— we can find help, proper help this time and we'll get you more medicines and a proper psychologist. Please, we can find help and we can get through this. Please, Kay. Don't do it."
"There's no help, Jenny" he said, he used to call me Jenny . "I can't stand it anymore, I can't deal with this pain, no matter how hard I try it, it just didn't go away! I'm tired of being in pain, Jenny! I'm tired of trying and not succeeding! I'm tired of being a f*****g failure! I'm tired of fighting. I decided to leave. "
He raised the g*n to his head again and s
