Loving Him

CHAPTER 1

Chapter 1

I stared at myself through the mirror.

Kailan lang iniwan ko siya. Tapos noong isang araw nakita ko ulit siya. At ngayon nandito na 'ko sa isang hotel room habang inaayusan ng isang make-up artist. Just because today is the wedding. And to the hell with him this too fucking fast.

"Ooh! Perfect! I wish I'm pretty too just like you." Malambing na sabi ng nag-aayos sa 'kin pagkatapos ilagay ang mga maliliit na white flowers sa buhok ko.

I smiled in return.

Light lang ang make up ko and he just let my long wavy brown hair down because that is what I wanted.

"Hey. Are you nervous? That's normal. You're so blessed that you'll be tied with a very handsome, hot, rich, and young guy like him." He cupped my face.

Napakalambing niya. Kung lalake lang sana siya, he's so much more handsome.

"Thank you." I said as I hold his hands.

I hope I am really just that lucky.

"Come on. Let's get you dressed." He said and guided me to my wedding dress.

On front of me is a beautiful gown. More like a white cock tail dress with thin straps and mermaid design. It's just simple but gorgeous.

"It's pretty right?" The gay said and chuckled. "Here's your shoes."

Inilabas niya ang mula sa isang pair ng Debbie Wingham Stilettos made up of glass. Its transparency shows butterflies in it.

"You know. If you'll use it, it would be like there are butterflies and flowers on your feet. You're so lucky. But I hope, the song 'lucky' will not be your song in life." Nakangiti niyang sabi.

I hugged him. "Thank you."

"Oh come on. Of course it's okay. Now go. Put it on."

He turned around as I put on the wedding dress.

I was a bit in shock when he started singing.

"She said she's lucky this hollywood girl. Na na na na na. But she cry cry cry na na na na na na..."

…

I'm now in front of the closed door of the church.

I'm so nervous. Scared too, I think my heart would just crawl out of my throat and I might throw it up anytime now.

That is gross.

The door opened and I can hear the beautiful song playing.

I am now walking down the aisle. I am shaking but I managed to keep it with a smile.

I can see the crowd looking at me. Hindi madami ang dumalo, I bet businessmen mga 'to.

Loneliness filled me as I thing about my parents. In my own wedding day, my parents aren't here. What could be worse?

Nick looks more dashing in his black and white tuxedo and waxed hair. I never thought I would still end up with him despite of what happened between us.

The ceremony was faster that I thought.  After being tied with him through the knots, lighted by the candle, exchanged rings and have the blessing, the priest finally said the words before ending the ceremony.

"I pronounce you man and wife in front of people and God, you may now kiss your bride."

I faced him. I keep on blinking my eyes while he stares at me. Could I still run?

I thought he won't kiss me. But he just did. I again felt his kiss after months. It weakened my knees and even made a tear to fall.

I've missed him.

It feels like it was our first kiss. It feels like the kiss he had always given me when he still loves me.

I smiled genuinely but it just faded when Nick whispered some words in my ear. My whole world just stopped.

"Now I'll have my revenge. Be ready to feel what it feels to live in hell." 

…

He opened the door of his house and it made me happy and guilty at the same time upon wandering my eyes at it.

The design is what exactly what he was telling me before to be our house. He is also an engineer so he designed this for sure.

"Fix your things, so that we can eat. There goes the room." He said seriously as he points the door of the room he is telling and left.

I went in. And the luxurious couches and king sized bed welcomed me… the mahogany table and swivel chair on front of the window is perfect.

In-open ko ang kaisa isang pinto. There I saw a lavatory and mirror on top of it.

I looked to my right and saw the rain shower inside a glass cube. May masikip na way sa side nito at nakita ko ang bath tab na glass din.

Lalabas na sana ako pero napansin kong may door pa pala sa left side na malapit sa lavatory. I slide it and a wide walk-in-closet is what I saw. Mga damit ni Nick malamang. May malaking salamin din ito at may pinto na naman sa tabi. I opened it and saw the toilet.

Okay. This room is something.

I am about to go out pero nagulat ako sa pagsulpot ni Nick sa may pinto.

"I- will I stay with you here?" I stuttered, still do not know how to start up a conversation with him after all that happened.

"Hindi ka pa pala tapos. And one thing more, it's my room and I just have to share with my WIFE." He stepped closer. "Maligo kana kung ayaw mong maligo tayong dalawa."

Napaatras ako sa sinabi niya. His tone was scary. It brought shivers to me. I was obviously all scared and all but he just laughed and went out.

God, just help me deal with him. 

…

Mouth-watering foods are all prepared on a long and wide table.

I hurriedly walked there when Nick saw me and stared at me.

"Tapos na 'ko. Ang tagal mo. You should eat. I'll take a bath." He said and stood up. "Oh…” he said like he forgot something. “Maids! I need y'all still for now." He said again and went beside me as he awaits the rushing maids. "You have a vacation." He started.

Some looked at me and smiled so I smiled back, I recognized some of them.

"You'll only be staying here for Saturdays for the general cleaning. The rest of the days, you can freely do what you want. I will not decrease any amount from your salary. Today's Saturday, I know you cleaned well. You can go home tomorrow." He added.

Naguguluhan ako sa sinasabi niya. Bakit niya pinapaalis?

"Oh thank you sir." One of them said.

"But sir, who will clean?" Tanong ng pinakamatanda.

Imbes na sumagot, tumingin lang siya sa 'kin at ngumiti.

"Pack your things. Just be in here every Saturday." He said to them.

Umalis naman na ang mga katulong. At napaupo nalang ako sa isang upuan. Umupo naman siya sa tabi ko at tinitigan ako. So I looked away.

"Aside from being my sex toy starting tonight, you'll also be my maid." He said and left.

Tears just fell down rapidly. He was serious… he is serious about making my life- our lives- miserable.

What should I do? Is this the only way to pay him?

God!

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