CAROLINE I took a deep breath, trying to control my galloping heart. That was the moment- the calm before the storm. The silence before the start of the play, when all lights in the theatre dimmer. The moment I entered that castle, the dance would start. A chain of events with only two possible outcomes: my death or Abaddon's. Most likely mine. I guess this is the time to tell everyone everything, I thought, scratching the varnished surface of my fingernail. Tell everyone I love them, my last wishes, stuff like that. My first thought was Sean, whom I had missed like breath in those days. It was only then that I allowed the wall behind which I'd locked all my feelings to fall, letting pain and love flood me. I was going to die, and I had no intention of making him suffer by tellin

