Rachel
I was exhausted. I haven't been able to sleep. This was the last day of the trial, unless something happened, we would be finished by the end of the day. I start getting breakfast ready, I'm not hungry, but I know it's important to feed myself. I have a long day in front of me, and I won't let hunger stop me. I hope Camilla feels the same way, she barely ate last night, and I worry about how the trial is affecting her. Today will be even harder, and she will need all the strength she can get.
I took great care getting ready, it was part of my armor, I need to feel in control to be in control, and looking great is part of it. So far I know I have been doing a good job, but today will be the most important, and I have to be perfect. That means that I can't look bad, I need to put my
