I am still laying in my bed after crying all night, I feel disgusted by myself. I didn't leave my room after Jaxon left me, I growled at Sebastian when we wanted to give me food. I feel like I am a disappointment to my family.
“If you could only see me now dad” I say ironically.
I walk into the bathroom and do my business but as I am about to go into the shower I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror. I see a loser, I see a worthless person and I see a wimp. If my pack would see me now, I would be picking out my tombstone. I know they love me but like my father said one time when we are alone was that this is a strong ruthless pack. They need a strong ruthless ruler that will not hesitate to kill or show them fire. My hair is greasy and flat, my eyes are red and puffy, my skin looks c
