Luci I love you Mommy. The whole room freezes around me as I let that sink in. All I can do is hug him tighter and kiss the top of his head. Easton’s voice cuts through the fog briefly as my mind begins to spin. “Cole, I think we might need to give Luci a minute.” “Ok. Can I go play with Barrett?” “Sounds good. We’ll be there in a few minutes.” “Ok. Bye Daddy. Bye Mommy.” He pulls away and takes off across the room. My heart stutters again. He can’t…someone else will tell him I’m not that. I just chewed out his mom in front of him. Said she abandoned him and didn’t love him. He had to hear all that! Dammit Luci, you told him she’s trying to take him away. He didn’t need to worry about that. The court system…ugh my big mouth. They know about my issues. And now it will look like I

